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Construction Over Destruction!
Negative expression is on a rampage this week in North America and while it can get overwhelming and fill us with despair, we need to fight it by sharing good things as fast as we can. No, art doesn’t...
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Art Month Update
Art month is going well! My mission to escape this dark cloud I’m under by doing things that normally make me feel good is working. I chose to do art to help me feel better, even though I’ve been too...
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One Door Closes, Another Opens
I’ve spent the last 24 hours in solitude, quietly experiencing the closing of 2012 and reflecting on what the year has meant to me. With the opening of 2013, I feel somber but strong. I almost didn’t...
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Thank You! Zine Pre-Orders Open
I woke up from a nightmare this morning to feel the sun on my face. Without even opening my eyes I recognized its warmth, and with a stretch that cracked several bones in my body, I reached out my foot...
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Spring Always Comes
We made it to daylight savings time, but South-Western Ontario got a fresh dump of snow and wintry winds along with it. Yesterday I caught myself thinking, “What if Spring never comes?” It’s handy when...
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Dirty Girls: Zinester Friends I Didn’t Have Until 25
This video is grabbing attention all over the internet as being an outsider in the 90′s is thrust into the spotlight. When I watch this video, I think of these girls as the friends I never had. These...
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Thanks, Mr. Publisher
This post is part two of my story detailing just what happened when I met with a book publisher this week. Read part one here! To recap, a publisher out of Toronto approached me at the Indie Media Fair...
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My Favourite Mental Health Books
Why do I write when I could become a therapist and earn a steady pay cheque? Because before speaking to any therapist about anything, I go to the library. Books are my number one therapist. I was...
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I Need Your Help!
My meeting with the publisher a few weeks ago knocked the wind right out of me. It put my mind and my heart through the wringer. I’ve recoiled from life on multiple levels, including avoiding writing...
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Thank You!
In my last blog post I wrote about being desperately broke yet needing money to renew our domain name, remove ads from the site, and then pay off my zine photocopy expenses. I spoke of saving up for a...
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Fighting for Survival
I believe we have to fight to create a world worth living in. On my very worst days, art is the only medium that gives me hope, so on my better days, I try to contribute to the world through art. When...
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Fuck Perfectionism!
Guess what I’m doing? Posting a short post, with no photo, just because I can. I’ve had SO many ideas for blog posts in the past week and every time I get an idea I smother it with negative self-talk...
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Rock Bottom Revisited
I’ve discovered something about shame involving mental illness: it’s a lot easier to shut down if you tell yourself – and everyone else – that the worst is behind you. That you’ll never hit rock bottom...
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When it’s Hard to Reach Out
I wish I could reach out to at least one of you when I’m in a crisis. I know it’s hard for you, my friends and family, to receive my call from the Emergency room, but that’s how these things play out...
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Credit Where Credit’s Due
So the voices in my head have gained strength. No, not auditory hallucinations. I don’t literally hear voices, but I do hear my negative self-talk louder and clearer than ever. What’s it saying? I’m...
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Suicide vs. The World
The insight from my recent descent into suicidal thinking makes realize all that my self-destructive gestures try to communicate: I don’t want to die as much as fix things as efficiently as possible....
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Sharing the Storm
My parents recently asked me if I could update them more frequently on how I’m feeling so that they get some warning before a crisis. This is a perfectly logical request, but when I’m super depressed,...
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Do I Deserve to Feel Better?
This morning I talked with my psychiatrist about whether I deserve to feel better. We were talking about increasing my one antidepressant, and the idea of changing my mood, even for the better, scares...
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Psychiatric Intensive Care Unit
I’m finally ready to write about this. You know how I’ve talked about there being an infinite amount of rock bottoms, at least in my life? During my last hospital stay, I ended up in the Psychiatric...
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Speaking Up
It’s hard to follow up a post like my last one. Although I don’t regret sharing my experience in the Psychiatric Intensive Care Unit with you, I still wonder about it being on the internet for the...
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